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that following night;
joe;
i leaned gently against the wooden door frame entering into the living room. i watched silently as i saw nick sleeping deeply. his small chest taking one shaky breath after another. his curls were matted from sleeping all day. he mustve really needed the sleep. he's awoken many times today. mostly from nightmares. the first time he awoken from the nightmare, he screamed. it was a very screeching scream. i remember leaving the pity for myself and giving it to my baby brother and rushing as fast as i let my feet into the living room. selena was pushing me away to aide to nick. he just needed someone to hold him. all those tears hes kept inside of him have finally breathed and left his body. the other continuing times i didn't bother rushing downstairs only not to be wanted. selena would use her motherly aide on nick. i sighed and couldn't believe how much pain and hurt could happen to this family. no joke. nick's been through the worst of it all. all he's ever done is try is hardest to chase miley since he was thirteen. now he's twenty- three and he's still chasing her. me on the other hand has been possibly the worst brother alive. seriously though many people think that i have to be the best brother to nick, when in reality i'm not. right now i'm thinking of nick before myself. he's going through actual hell at the moment. his beloved miley is halfway across the country and to top it off she has nick's children with her. it's been worrying the hell out of nick. he hates when he cant see kade or kevin. it bothers him, he doesn't know if kade's diabetes are okay or are they out of control. kevin on the other hand is always getting into dangerous situations. i turned my torso and allowed nick to sleep there for the night. i wrapped my arms around my shivering body, realizing i could see my own breath. selena mustve forgot that me and nick were still here and just shut it off. i forced my legs up the tall stairs. i turned my legs to the bathroom. i shut the door, but didn't lock it. i shuddered as my feet hit the cold tiles on the floor. i unwounded my arms around my shaking body and opened the cabinet. there wasn't much inside the cabinet. there was aspirin, cold medication and selena's depression medication. i sighed and my breath was shown before my own eyes. i reached inside the cabinet and pulled both of the aspirin and selena's depression medication. i shut the cabinet with a free hand and set the bottles on the edge of the sink. i grabbed the aspirin first and poured maybe ten tablets into my palm. i closed my fist tightly and screwed the lid back onto the bottle. i then unscrewed the lid on selena's medication and poured about six tablets into my palm. both jars were empty. i stared at the tablets shaking in my sweaty palm. i opened my mouth large enough and forced the bitter tablets into my mouth. i swallowed hard and forced sixteen tablets into my system. at first i felt normal. just chilly from the coldness in the house. then it all hit me. the mild shaking from the chilliness turned into violent shaking. i gripped tightly onto the sinks edge trying to keep my balance, but i couldn't. i shook harder and more violent. my legs and arms swinging everywhere. my mouth was clench tight and i couldn't scream. it was like my jaw was on lock down. my head was pounding and i could feel my heart race. the veins on my arms were basically popping out of my skin. i just wanted it to all stop. i didn't want life. i wanted god to take me... now..
selena;
i scuffed my boots on the welcome mat in the doorway and hung my jacket on the rack. i breathed lightly and saw my breath before myself. i immediately turned the heater on high. while my hands were chafing against my arms trying to make me warm , i took a quick peek into the living room. nick was still fast asleep in the same position i left him before i left. suddenly i heard banging and shatters from upstairs. i heard nick groan and shift in his sleep. i pushed my legs fast upstairs and realized the sound was coming from the bathroom. "joe?" i said easily. the door was closed. this felt like such déjà vu. i reached a shaky hand to open the door and before my own eyes i watched in horror as joe was convulsing violently on the tile floor. his eyes were wandering the room. searching for me. then his mouth was clenched tightly. his face turning from purple to blue. i quickly saw the shattered the jar laying on the ground. i quickly knew the jar. it was my own depression medication.. he just overdosed..
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